rise and shine i'm Mild as the weather outside

so. yes; i do tend to have a lot of energy. almost overflowing.
(it sometimes sort of shines through in this blog, i reckon)
and a lot of passion, especially for experimenting, trying new stuff.

my plan have up to this day been a somewhat success. my plan? not eating eggs and dairy, duh. (meat is already long gone) don't know how i got into this brilliant idea, but it is indeed very exciting. i guess what caught my attention was : if you eat no dairy for a period of time your body becomes lactose-intorelant. WELL that's what i call interesting!
of course i'm gonna try it out, no question.
but i discovered a big something. it's almost far more important to obtain from eggs and dairy than meats. or at least that's what my body tells me. i could darn well be eating meat as long as i eat dairy, because i react almost the same way. i tend to get Sick. and so on, it has been this way all my life, that's mainly why i try these things with great interest. as if i were meant to not eat meat and other animal products. again - INTERESTING.
(but the most important sideeffect besides my bodys happiness - think about the cows and calves and the egglying hens that suffers under horrible conditions, i simply can't keep my eyes shut and my feelings numb anymore...)

i do eat fishies so "i will stay healthy" ach (for those of you who of course may think the oposite)

made some vegan cupcakes containing that beautiful eggreplacement and molasses from last week. and homemade almondmilk. they turned out amazing. i "forced" them on my peeps and kept describing them with great energy and passion and no"ammagad we simply MUST NOT EAT ANIMALY THINGS" worries. they absolutely loved my recipie and found them really interesting. <3 ah. cool. tolerance! oh how much i love it

but one thing i sense these days, i sense even more. my energy-level has exploded on the days i don't consume these products. so. there simply must be a link between veganism and my optimal nutrition. maybe i'll become a dedicated strict pescetarian or vegan with time. but not with fanatism, there's enough of that in the world already.

but because i can't help caring, being overthetop curious and passionate about these matters.

i'm such a junkie.

so besides my insane projects, i've been listening to a lot of music today.
among the titles are the shins, happy mondays and elliott smith. and a wee bit animal collective.

but for poplovers i must recommend the shins. very pretty music. i've been in a very special mood today, that's probably why i liked these titles so much. but their album Wincing the Night Away was sweet. a band formed in 97 in new mexico. "alternative folk" was used when the genre were described. why yes.
must sat elliott smith provides music impossible to dislike. very relaxing. and he has a pretty pretty voice, a solid way of writing songs very acousticly etc. at least from what i've heard today, which is the 2disc album New Moon. imagine that. there's seriously no wonder why he's been a huge influence for some.
and last : happy mondays. their album Loads was the first thing i heard. something i would love to play for people on a party since my other taste in music does not qualify for such youknow.
i liked it. but have got to give it more than one listening.

my taste in music has expanded a lot lately. all due to spotify?.. (with this i means a lot less music annoys me hahasicko)

i love snow. and finally it has arrived. HELLO SNOW AND WELCOME NOW LET'S HAVE SOME FUN!

i also spent some quality-time with a pair of scissors. heep heep.
(results may vary)

THO'

two plus two is four two plus two is four two plus two is four YAH

am i having the BEST day or WHAT

did my exam today, nice and clean and lean
i left the place thinking - i made a difference, i made it pretty clear, i know something and my very well deserved grade is eventually heading for my mailbox.
SO. . . HAPPY
and then, i was so excited, didn't even eat breakfast. nor lunch. even tho i brought some. but whatever. it's a GOOD sign! meaning i was totally obsessed by writing. (i finnished ten pages or so)
theN i WERiineNTnnt Went ToooOTOootOTOo oTHeehheTHe TOWN:::
to purchase some chirstmasgifts. I usually GivE some Too.
instead i walked straight into this shop were all us freaks can get healthy and alternative foods, especially for vegans and vegetarians. YAY. i decided to finally go in there and check it out.
i did buy blackstrap molasses, which is indeed a very rich source of iron and calcium. and some eggreplacer (1 package is equal to 66 eggs, MADNESS) for 35kr. THEn I bought a grain-sort called Hirse. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
AND THENENNNENNNN!
i met up with my papa and bougt coffee, tea and wine. ammagad. spent a Long time in the liqourstore, thinking i could finally start killing my brain again.
soooo to top it all off i visited my father and we had the most delicious dinner made from selfgrown carrots <3, broccoli, FreSh boiled poTaaAtoes and grilled marinated halibut. my breakfast. ended with an even more (not possible but hey) delicious mango.

so now. i'm sitting here. drinking my tea. and thinking about. NOthing. and by gum am i gonna continue down that road.

OH mY GOSH I FORGOT THE TITLE. ach.

woh woh owhwo woh hwohw owhowohohw ohwwohw hwohwoh wowohwohwohwwoh

to my lovely surprise. entering the music more "available" than whatever else i usually dig for. or, that was my idea of it. now it has changed. i loaded my fancy mp3-player with music from my brothers computer (because he downloads and i don't, so i'm morally clean haha) and among the bands were Gorillaz. i got this sudden need to listen to "feel good inc", which is very amazing itself, so i looked up and checked out their album "demon days". turns out it's friggin amazing too! i never knew what to think about this virtual band, but after checking it out on wiki i discovered some very attractive things.
blurs vocalist Damon Albarn started this whole thing in 1998 and his brilliant idea was to expand the music-scene on MTV. more eclectic. so they presented a variation of genres, which truly was the reason i caught up on their music on Demon Days, thinking that what i heard was somewhat "nerdy" music. Actually! NO KIDddingg.g. it's pretty cool, gonna be listening a lot more to them i figure. and hoping i won't have to change my opinion so far!

absolutely AWESOME

(hehehehhehehehhehehhehhheeehehehehehheheheheheheheeEHEHEHERH)

thank you for LISTENING aNd DFor Er r re ekerjnkrejkekjerkjrekjer


:)




SMILEY

eoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow si em

so HELLO





how you doin? just checking.
made this from horses, scissors and patience.

DrivesLesson - i has it. now i envy every car i see. longing to be one of them. or at least able to drive one of them without a worry.
at the moment i just feel weird about not beginning earlier!
or wait. my reasons for delaying the drivers license:
environment
fast-moving metal that kills
environment
lazyness
environment
MONEYYYYY
i don't really need it - it's just a luxury-item

but of course. it certainly is handy. so why deny it. i'll be a lot more free to roam around.

i'm JUST playing my part!

to be on top of yourself

related to the pointy and bitey thing called reality

mentally foggy, drowsy, unexcited. dragging your heavy head while desperatly wanting to burst out in dance and happyness but you don't because "please, think of the opinions"

a grey day on the sidewalk
knowing that you'll soon be in a situation where
all forms of unmannered expression of feelings or words
would be looked upon as disgusting,
instantly judged
forever implied
to the madness of ones mind
which only leads to closed doors
and narrow bridges

who needs halloween when the regular day is this scary?

i'm not depressed, but sheesh, these days hit me often.

that's mainly why i'm still unemployed and currently happy.

current

..

currency

of todays future

log on link in toss out up the ladder
stiff necks and order
rules rolls
heavy eyelids and discotunes

i used to be a perfectly normal and somewhat healthy girl

whatever
main thing is i used to be happy all the time

rubbish!

i used to be focused
i used to work fairly hard and have high standards
i used to have good strong habits and a strickt structure most people would dream off

so where has it all gone now?
i mainly blame myself for letting other people impact me way before i saw the whole picture

i stand back today and realise how i should have reacted at certain times/points of my life

it is rather heartbreaking
what has happened
what i've come to

but mostly i wander about, not caring at all

i create bliss from the strangest, most illegal things
at least, stuff that used to be illegal (i'm thinking of rules that only imply my very self)
so whatever
just whatever
that's usually what gets me through today

a faulty heartwarmer

"there's always tomorrow"
so i'll never change
because 95% of the day i think "i've gotta change" and then i slip right back into the usual tracks again

i hate whatever has become habitual that's not good for me
i can't believe the change i've actually gone through

all because i wanted to be happy
to wake up in a better place
without prejudice and all

the answer is YES i am that lame, being all fuled up on what other people think about me

i'm such trash, i'm so ruined

i'm not alive
i live in regret
i live in bliss
i live in denial

"my ears should be burning"

but again. the last 5% counts the most
somehow
it's easy to not care
to fake an interest
but truly
i am disturbed
like most of us

:)

don't get me wrong i am usually a happy girl
but i have serious issuses
that no one knows about

secret serious issues
how glamorous

i'm laughing :)

this i must try

just read a special something containing shock-value:
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18669916?ordinalpos=1&itool=EntrezSystem2.PEntrez.Pubmed.Pubmed_ResultsPanel.Pubmed_RVDocSum

hmh. obviously our immunesystems react to the nonhuman monosaccharide sialic acid N-glycolylneuraminic acid (Neu5Gc), which ultimately means - your body wants to fight off this molecule and has an antibody for it. the reaction occuring when it so does, is known to cause various diseases due to inflammation (which could become chronical).
this substance is found in animals and animal products and seperates us humans from them because we don't naturally have it in our bodies and, of course, since we react to it.

read more here;
http://www.chakra.org/living/simpOct22_03.html

http://pescetarianlife.com/immune.php - this one because i this instant discovered this website. i felt i had to read something about just eating fish instead of meats, eggs and dairy.

i don't know. makes sense to me. i'll try to continue staying away from the rich sources such as meat and milk. i already feel a significant change, and may this be one of the main reasons?

my brain's the burger

Ah i'm a bit worn out due to some hours of climbing yesterday. <3

been reading about genetics again, two chapters about it. heavy. but i'm beginning to see the far end of this. i spot some growing hope in and for the future.

talking heads is awesome. better start collecting their albums. maybe my dad have some LPs by them.
i've always been fascinated by david byrne and his "rumor", but i never had any real access to their music. BUT with a shredded spotify at hand i'm able to really pinpoint what i should think of them.
he's quite good at lyrics! absolutely. and i love his vocals. suits my crazy (talking) head well.
bad pun for every nooe.

but! whatever.
i'm shipping off now, going to lie down on my ohsofine yoga-mat. i also had the most realistic insane dream that i'm not able to get rid of. it haunts me still. but i keep forgetting.

also. went fishing yesterday. we had nine fishingnets designed to catch halibut - and finally got one! but some happy hagfishes got a hold on it before we did. so. the whole deliciousness weighing in at aprox 25 kilos was all done for. eaten, that is. the only thing we got was the leftovers, such as the head, the skin and the tail. EVERY other thing had been eaten. they even laid some eggs to prove their existance......

what makes us tick.

gotta stay proffesional by giving ourselves amnesia.

so i says

hell o and happy fathersday for all you HAppy Fellows.
and happy birthday to my brother. i have to say it, he's a follower of this blog. (heephepe)
and now - cake. after pie.
that's awesome. i even gave my wonderful father some flowers. he's awesome.

so. i says.

this is a sunday, obviously. there's such a unique and boring feel to sundays, which is kind of a killer. it saddens me. the whole day's often a big waste of time because tomorrow's monday and there's NOTHING we can dooo....

so grab a spoon and keep diggin, ive got a lovely tune for all you lousy people out there. soundtrack of today. i really don't have any, i'm a bit drained because of the sunday-fact, youknowyoudon't?awsuchashameamithenolyone?whatohyoufeellikethatsometimes?didyoufindgodmaybe?nonomeneitherahwellanywayshappysadday::::

happily dancing, cheering and waving down lollipop lane!! 2

i'm TRHILLED!
went to the big city yesterday. to my lovely surprise they're obviously opening a new recordshop! if i didn't misunderstand the banner.
and. i also bought a ton of different dried beans, peas and lentils. AWESOME. i can be a vegetarian for almost a year on this load.
and. as an even bigger finnish - i got my sweaty hands on an insane copy of a music magazine from the UKs. everything on the cover appealed, but most of all the actual magazine within the cardboard-cover was oh so special. on the cover of the magazine they printed the face of my favorite artist OverTheWholeThing. Huge. and lovely. and inside - an eight pages special about the band. some good photos and two interviews, one old, one very fresh. didn't learn too much that i never knew before, but whatthehey. when i saw the whole thing i went nuts. it did cost me about 199 kr but i kept saying "what a bargain!!" because i was over-the-top excited and ran around smiling in an outstanding rush of happiness! hehe. little else makes me as happy as my obsession of music, obviously.

-.,,.--.,,.-long longing-.,,.--.,,.--.,,.-

I've looked everywhere, Mr. Forbes

but I can't find the cello or yet the french horn

And I can't find the harp

I don't know where it's gone

and of course you can't go without that

I've looked everywhere, Mr. Forbes

but I can't find your clamshells, your file or your drill

and your sheepskin-lined coat is eluding me still

and of course you can't go without that

I've looked in the attic, the cellar and the hall

I've looked in the studio, study and all

I've looked in the chest where I thought it should be

I've looked in the greenhouses- one, two and three

I've looked everywhere, Mr. Forbes

but I can't find the gavel

and oh why oh why can't I think what I did with that ol' skill and die

and of course you can't go without that

You can't possibly go without that

from the shivering and brilliant "Marla" by the beloved Grizzly Bear

there's something so insanely beautiful and nostalgic, yet disturbing, with it. spellbinding.

in somewhat the same manner as "life in a glasshouse" by Radiohead. which hits like a wall. this track is too amazing. from my favorite album by them, "Amnesiac". that's what i really want for "christmas" - the reissued version of it with all the additional tracks; B-sides and live recordings. i'm stressed about not having it. my all-time favorite music up to this day, for so many reasons.

like thom yorke said about kid a - this is pop. to me, at least. it's about doing what you really truly love.

An InSulT

SoundTraCk OfTOdayYyy.
bat for lashes "fur and gold". ratatat "LP3". bjork "homogenic".
i'm not getting anything done. so faR. BUT I CAN CHANGE!! ....woh woh woh whoohw howhow howhohowohw woohwohw howhowohwhoow hwoh WOH whoohw woh.

every time i realise it it gets me a bit down because my mp3-player got its screen crushed at a festival, which of course is Very ironic! and sad. creatice zen x-fi; the most beloved item of mine [next to my Nad and Dali combo in the livingroom]. the earphones said their goodbye shortly after the gentle crush. it's annoying. i even cried on the bus when the incident came to my knowledge. ach. the player were among the finest (inthepriceclass 1200 kr) due to its massive focus on Sound Quality, Perfection And The Importancy Of It. i now roam around in the forest with an old set of earphones that hangs by a thread. soon to be broken, i assume. heepheep. it makes me so sad. i have not managed to do something about it. youknow. try fixing it. buy a new set of QUaLiTy earphones, etc. i just keep holding on to this Pet and continue searching for desired music in the blind since the screen's a pretty mess, looking like a thunderstorm.


goodbye, my friend

HapPPppily dancing down lollipop lane!

after a weekend well done, sober that is, monday has finally arrived once again, as i hope it will continue to.

been fishin', just ran down the door. we got a lot of Nothing. Yay! which means there's still plenty of happy fish in back in the sea - makes the vegan within very satisfied..



album of the today must be Grizzly Bears "Horn of Plenty". it's something very special, you. the first time i heard it it blew me away - but the opening track "deep sea diver" hit me extra hard. i discovered it a couple of months ago and it was instantly placed as a unique favorite. i must recommend you play this song togheter with the music video. ah. most beautiful thing i ever experienced. they soon became one of my favorite bands.

Ed Droste, the "lead" singer, (who named this after a nickname he gave an old boyfriend - grizzly bear) recorded this album with a handheld recorder together with his mate and bandmember to come, Christopher Bear. it's from the "bedroom", raw and longing. some lack of money made them extra creative, but yet they kept it simple and powerful. the sound through the entire album is a bit rusty, old-timey, maybe, magic, atmospheric and so real. Ed said he had no clue on how to record it, nor was he up to date with other music and musicians in brooklyn. i'm having serious trouble describing it so i'll just suggest you buy the whole thing. their first 'album', from 2004.

it might be of the kind you're gonna have to listen through multiple times and be somewhat very patient with, but if you give it more than one chance i'm sure it'll give you plenty in return. i absolutely love it.

Aaaah.............. immerse your soul in their sound