before belong, behead

field interviews. what a glorious habit. what a brilliant idea.

you can learn a lot from most people when able to listen and ask the right questions.

somehow, hearing them talk makes information stick around. perhaps because you pay attention if you ask interesting questions and get interesting answers.

interest. always the key.

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anger. one of the emotions that can be combated with a few steps back and reasoning.
same goes for jealousy. which others are there, that produces as much conflict and terror.
and yet, so easy to deal with if you manage to collect wit for a bit.

this is the hour with 3600 long seconds. on ne passe pas.
so much time given for a pause during deep breaths.
heave and leave be.
sometimes, the best reaction, is none at all.

such thoughts have crossed my mind frequently for a long time.
even though it is difficult to combat the reptilian brain.
to care is in fact a balancing act.


"don't trust anyone. life is safer that way."

cynicism armour. my amor.

what are impulses, if not right right away.
trust your gut, we're often told.
no. our gut spews shit that should be transported straight to the sewers.
left in a deep hole. also known as the sea.
from which we feed.
but at least it's been beating about in a cycle.
so what's not to want, what's not to trust.
how much of a fan are you.
importance. air. warm or cold wind. fan.
remember those days. those hours. when everything was right. you fought and won to keep it that way. for a day, an evening, half an hour or the duration of a certain song.
ah yes. those.

organ.


instead of believing you have to accept or refuse, be tolerant.

self-consciousness and anxiety are so similar.

the reason to be scared is an even better one to think.
your understanding of the world grows deeper as time pass.
all the levels of our society. awareness becomes knowledge.

the x at the corner of all things.
click it with your index finger.
who knows how much you know.
how many hours spent looking words up in a dictionary.
the historybook about you is a printed copy of your internet activities. published by google and facebook.

you get what you work for, not what you wish for. etc.

swallow. regergitate. entropy.